Weekly Photo Challenge: Forward

Forward

This past week was a difficult one for me. I am close to finishing my book and wondering how my Word Babies will be accepted by the world. Will people buy my book? If they do buy it, will they like it? What if it gets ripped apart in book clubs? What if it doesn’t get published at all?!

Part of my anxiety stems from the fact I just entered the first four chapters into the Pacific Northwest Writers Association Literary Contest. Contest finalists will be announced in June, and the winners will be announced at the writers conference in July. Finalists will receive ribbons to wear at the conference, and I find that quite glamorous – being marked for greatness by the literary powers that be, hobnobbing with agents and editors, and proudly discussing my written offspring.  So now, of course, I’m worried about not being awarded a ribbon and am already fraught with jealousy over a yet to be determined list of winners. (insert loud, exasperated sigh.)

This morning I boarded a ferry to Lummi Island to spend part of the day writing at the Beach Store Cafe. It’s the perfect place to grab a chair by the window and let those worries recede into the waters of Hale Passage. Sitting here and reading over my manuscript, I am reminded that I write because I love writing, not because of finalist ribbons or promise of where my Word Babies will travel. Writing is like steering a boat through fog. I don’t know if the waters ahead are smooth or turbulent. I don’t know if I’ll even find the shore or how long I’ll be sailing. But, I keep moving forward.

What’s the alternative? To stay docked?

I am assured that all writers have doubts about their craft. Does anyone else out there worry so much about things that haven’t even happened?

37 Replies to “Weekly Photo Challenge: Forward”

  1. I’ve been in these shoes. Having the ribbon at the conference is a nice boost. Agents and editors DO notice, at this conference they even have direct access to your submission in a separate room for their review. Remind yourself that a ribbon is just as much about who the judges were, who else entered the contest, and the structure of the rubrick as it is about the fabulous nature of your work. If you get one, its a great bonus, and if you don’t, you’ll just have to impress agents and editors another way. No matter what happens, congratulations to you for almost finishing your manuscript and for having the courage to share it.

    1. Thank you for your encouragement, Lorraine. I did notice your name on the Pacific Northwest Writer Association member list. Are you planning on attending the conference this summer? We should get together and talk writing again soon.

  2. I worry all the time. Sometimes I fantasize and think my books will be best sellers. The rest of the time I despair, thinking they’ll never even sell. But they will. Yours will. It’s the old cliche about the squeaky wheel: pester enough agents or editors with a good book and they’ll bite!

  3. The photograph is painterly and as it is my wont to linger in foggy daydreams, I’ll stay and admire it a little longer. As to the book, felicitations for having undertaken and nearly completed such a daunting task. I am awed.

    By way of saluting your infectious attitude, I’m taking the unusual step (there is no protocol in these matters) to award you the imaginary though powerful “I haven’t read this book yet but already love it” cup. May drinking from it inspire you to always write with joy (as in the joy, for instance, of indulging in the alchemic pleasure of splitting infinitives).

    1. I am inspired by your confidence, and I accept your imaginary award. It’s far better than any arbitrarily assigned ribbon. (And to boldly split whatever infinitives I desire – what fun!) Thank you for a dose of literary magic in my morning.

  4. I think the anxiety is part of the creative process. You have to open yourself up and that isn’t easy. I feel that way when I put my photos out for the world on the blog, and have had the same sort of worries now that I’m thinking about publishing the photos in other forms. A little anxiety is good IMHO, it shows that you care about what you’re putting out there. And I like the photo – makes me miss the Northwest.

    1. And when I see your photos, Mike, I get the wanderlust! I think you hit the nail on the head – anxiety shows that you care about what you’re putting out there. So, I’m normal? ha. I do hope you compile your photos into a book. If you hit the East Coast, you’ll have covered the entire continental USA.

  5. Love the mood, the composition, and the lighting, exceedingly well done! Good luck with the book too. I think I make photographs for the same reason you write. I’d really like to earn my living with my camera one day, and I love it when people love it, but I photograph because I need to. I do it for me.

  6. I totally feel this way all of the time. Rarely do I remember that I love writing–mostly I think about how much I’ll love the attention and recognition. Thanks for your honest insights!

    1. This was taken a few weeks ago in La Conner. I’ve been waiting for the right time to post it. Sometimes writing at home can be productive – certainly less expensive. (By the way, I was the only one on the ferry on the way over today. Really quiet over here.)

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